慟哭の雨




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不随にかけられ堕ちる闇の中へ
閉ざされた目広がる世界に
時限意識残量数えて眠りを待つ
ひとつふたつただ消えてく実像
音は掻き消され

reclusivesouls: ♡
stay soft. it looks beautiful on you.
girlwrists: Thirst / Bakjwi (Park Chan-wook, 2009) Like a leper rotting in flesh, let all avoid me. Like a cripple without limbs, let me not move freely. Remove my cheeks, that tears may not roll down them. Crush my lips and tongue, that I may not sin with them. Pull out my nails, that I may grasp nothing. Let my shoulders and back be bent, that I may carry nothing. Like a man with a tumor in the head, let me lack judgement. Ravage my body sworn to chastity, leave me with no pride and have me live in shame. Let no one pray for me.

My mom wants me to consider getting laser eye surgery during the summer but I’m honestly too scared… I’ve been told several times it’s a pretty safe procedure, and the doctor said there are pretty good chances of getting my vision back almost to 100%. I just can’t stand the idea of having anything in my eyes, and I’ve never gone through any kind of surgery before.